Special note to myself

Hey girl!  Why r u living ur life so hypocritically? Trying ur best to please others,  to 'suit in'with others? Did they give u the money?  Any kind of reward maybe?  Yeah I'm not the cheerful girl type,  or u may define it as 'hambar'.  I'm not that good to join with ur kind of uselessly conversation, or join in with any kind of conversation that are not even relate to me. U guys may refer it as a kelemahan but not for me.  I accept it wholeheartedly. Itsokayy I might have less number of friends but one thing for sure,  i get quite a number of 'real friends'.  The one that accept me as the way I am, always help me whenever i need them,  be patient with me, not easily getting irritated, and many more.  InshaAllah our friendship will last long till Jannah. I wont ask for more,  i don't need that damn recognition bc I'm not the type of attention-seeker.  I just hope that u guys will understand me more and not going to left me behind juz bc im kind of org yg senyap or xbnyk ckp.  With this note,  I hope i would gain more confident in my life,  not really concern of people opinion toward me,  and live my life calmly. Cause this is my life,  not them.